Oh my word it is flipping freezing down here. I know there is all kinds of freaky weather going on around the world so I can hardly complain but phew…someone left the fridge door open because it’s winter all over again. The good thing about bad weather is that it gives you plenty of time to do cozy in-doorsy things. My very favourite in-doorsy activity is writing. Long before my blog came to be, I was scribbling away in flowery notebooks. I am a big believer in the power of words and I think journaling is an excellent way of using words to heal. It’s like self-therapy.
But the thing with journaling, probably something that’s goes through your mind every time you pick up the pen and try to write is it’s tricky to know where to start.
I’ve realized recently that I’m a bit of a people-pleaser. I hate letting people down. I want to be seen as a reliable, dependable, person. Someone you can count on to always pull through. Someone who’s got your back 24/7. But I’ve also realized that, that is a completely unrealistic expectation I have put on myself. In fact it has caused me to end up in a bundle of tears and soggy tissues because I feel like I’m failing everyone.
I think the cure to this craziness is making sure we take care of ourselves. But how do we prioritize self care when we don’t want to let people down? How can we keep all of our commitments and still stay sane?
How you doin’? I’m pretty darn happy that it’s Friday if I’m honest. This week has been a little bit of a roller coaster let me tell ya. The other night I got home and had a little blub-fest because I felt completely overwhelmed. You know how it’s just one thing after another and you can’t handle it all and before you know it you are crying with your face in a tub of ice cream? That’s about where I was at on Wednesday night.
And you know in times like these what you really need is a comforting, feel good movie, am I right?
Probably one of my biggest flaws is how highly strung and anxious I am. I have absolutely, positively zero chill. It doesn’t take much to get my stomach in knots and my knees a’ knocking. And the worst thing is, my anxiety rears it’s ugly little head in such absurdly normal situations. Like trying to sit down on the bus before it starts moving again. Or trying to figure out when to make eye contact with the stranger that I’m walking towards. Or as I’m checking for the billionth time that I haven’t left my keys behind on my dresser.
Welcome to the trenches. Welcome to a behind the scenes, backstage, close up look at real life. This post is not an Instagram-worthy, rose-tinted, snappy filtered one. It’s raw and real and the blog post equivalent of a messy bun, sweatpants and no make-up kind of day. This is a post for those really hard days. When you are feeling lower than you have ever felt before. When you feel the stinging sensation of loss, loneliness or disappointment. When you feel heavy and empty and don’t know what to do. This isn’t just another sappy, self care post. This is self care for when you NEED to feel sad.
So remember the other day we were talking about how to start dressing with confidence and I was telling you about how much of a girly girl I am? Well yeah that’s true and all, but when it comes to beauty I’m pretty hopeless. If someone could please teach me how to use liquid eyeliner without hurting myself or what all those little brushes are for that would be great. When it comes to getting ready I am very lazy and so for all my fellow lazy girls I thought today would be a great day to share some super simple beauty hacks with a little help from a friend.
Long time no see right? Did you notice that I sorta disappeared over the weekend? I’m gonna flatter myself and pretend you did. I got sucked into this vortex of socializing, studying and sickness. I am pleased to report that I finally feel like a normal human being again. But my return to full health means I am now behind on pretty much every area of my life and low key freaking out. Today we are talking about how to pick yourself up on an off day because I sure as heck am gonna need these tips to get me through the next couple of weeks.
Ever have those weeks where suddenly everything is on at once and you end up running around like a headless chicken non-stop? Mmm yeah me too, and waaay too often! It is a strange world we live in that sometimes the less time you actually have, the more you get done. But that being said, it can be hard not to let that feeling of overwhelm get the better of us when our schedules are chocka-block. Don’t you worry my friend, you are not alone in your little meltdowns and minor freak-outs, I’m the Queen of Crazytown.
It’s April already and I’m betting that some of you have let your ambitious 2017 health and fitness goals slide a little. But that’s okay because I totally have as well. However, I mentioned on Instagram that I just did something a little crazy and signed myself up to run a quarter marathon (sounds better than a 10k right?) So eep I gotta get training ASAP so I don’t die come race day which is fast approaching!
I am sick. It started out with an unbearably sore throat on Thursday and come Sunday I was struggling to muster the energy to move out of bed. This is possibly the worse time to get sick, right in the midst of exam season. When I need focus, clarity and motivation, my head feels rather like it has been stuffed full of cotton wool balls. But I am hardly surprised that I am sick. It has been a long time coming really. Being sick is what happens when you are burnt-out.