I have come to realize that I am a teensy tiny (okay huge) control freak. Nothing sends me into a spin like friends spontaneously dropping by or plans changing at the last minute. I love planning, organizing and being prepared at all times. This seems to be simultaneously a blessing and a curse. Because if you need someone reliable…I’m you’re girl. I’ll be there when I say I will. I won’t forget our plans or run out of time or flake out on you. I’m little miss dependable.
But this need to be in control is also a huge burden in my life.
Oh my word it is flipping freezing down here. I know there is all kinds of freaky weather going on around the world so I can hardly complain but phew…someone left the fridge door open because it’s winter all over again. The good thing about bad weather is that it gives you plenty of time to do cozy in-doorsy things. My very favourite in-doorsy activity is writing. Long before my blog came to be, I was scribbling away in flowery notebooks. I am a big believer in the power of words and I think journaling is an excellent way of using words to heal. It’s like self-therapy.
But the thing with journaling, probably something that’s goes through your mind every time you pick up the pen and try to write is it’s tricky to know where to start.
This year is my blog’s 4th birthday (woo!) and that little milestone is happening next month which just so happens to coincide with another freaking huge milestone…my 21st birthday. So I figured instead of swamping October with celebratory posts I would spread them out (double the cake, double the fun.) And since this is my blog’s birthday party I thought it would be a great time to share the reason why it even exists. So today I’m sharing my reason for blogging. I’ve never really sat down and told this story before although it’s something I get asked a lot. It’s a funny thing how blog’s start out because most of us never expect to get as invested in them as we do. But here I am four years later and I honestly can’t imagine not being a blogger. So cue the confetti…let’s start the celebration…
I’ve realized recently that I’m a bit of a people-pleaser. I hate letting people down. I want to be seen as a reliable, dependable, person. Someone you can count on to always pull through. Someone who’s got your back 24/7. But I’ve also realized that, that is a completely unrealistic expectation I have put on myself. In fact it has caused me to end up in a bundle of tears and soggy tissues because I feel like I’m failing everyone.
I think the cure to this craziness is making sure we take care of ourselves. But how do we prioritize self care when we don’t want to let people down? How can we keep all of our commitments and still stay sane?
I hope you are having a great week thus far. This past weekend I went to this ‘Day in France‘ market that was happening. It was mostly food stalls which I was not complaining about. The French know their food. I have two words for you my friend, mini croissants. We also bought these grilled cheese sandwiches that were to-die-for.
I shared a few shots on Instagram but today you are about to be blessed with the rest of them. I’m also sharing all of my favourite links from around the web this month.
And happy Monday to all of you US folks. Since it is Monday I thought I would pop in with a bit of Monday motivation to help you make today awesome. If it’s Tuesday where you live (like it is down here) then let’s be real, you need this just as much as the others because any day that isn’t Friday is hard work. If you know me at all then you know I love a good inspirational quote. I make no apologies for being totally basic and smattering them all over my Pinterest, in my Instagram captions and on my bathroom mirror.
I’m currently jamming to Taylor Swift re-living my teen years (sans acne and awkwardness) and it is such a good time. Listening to this music always brings back memories for me and with that comes all the feels. To think how much I’ve experienced since I first heard these songs. To remember how far I’ve come, how much I’ve grown…and all the lessons I’ve learnt over the years. It makes me get a little teary. God’s been so good you guys. So today I wanna jump into a little bit of #realtalk about one of the greatest life lessons I’ve learnt so far.
Probably one of my biggest flaws is how highly strung and anxious I am. I have absolutely, positively zero chill. It doesn’t take much to get my stomach in knots and my knees a’ knocking. And the worst thing is, my anxiety rears it’s ugly little head in such absurdly normal situations. Like trying to sit down on the bus before it starts moving again. Or trying to figure out when to make eye contact with the stranger that I’m walking towards. Or as I’m checking for the billionth time that I haven’t left my keys behind on my dresser.
Wanna know a little secret? I’m currently writing this post in my biology lab, on the back of my lab manual, in pencil so I can erase it before I hand my worksheet in later. I know, I know, I’m the worst student ever but this little confession ties in perfectly with today’s post. See, I’ve realized something recently which is this: I have a real issue with letting myself slow down. I’ve been hustling hard and it’s wearing me down.
Happy end of July and would you look at that, it’s time for another book review! Somehow I managed to miss June’s book review so I knew that I had to make this month an extra special one and it sure is my friends. Because this book is not only fabulous which makes me excited to gush all about it, but it is also written by a fellow blogger and a lovely friend of mine. In fact I owe it to Heartbeat for bringing Emily into my life, for which I am eternally grateful. So stop what you are doing and let me tell you all about why you need this get your hands on this book ASAP.
And if you stick around to the end I might just be able to help you out with that! (Wink wink, nudge nudge, a giveaway is in the air!)